For Indonesiaan, you must have heard about this news, about Turkish government release something in their website that offend many schools that have relationship or cooperate with turkish organization. My school is one of the school that mention in their website. Actually I don't really care because my duties as student just studying and getting knowledge from my teacher but this news very disturbing my school situation even my friends have been talking about it. To be honest, I don't love my school very much, but when people say someting bad about it and it is not true, I am upset off course. What did you feel when other country try to close your school? and they didn't even say the truth. I don't defend my school or somebody, I am neutral. I am as student don't have business with their political or anything, my duty here just study and arrange my future as best as possible. Please, I just want to study to pay my parents so they not dissapointed and please don't talk anything about this if you even didn't know the truth. even I as student, I don't have any encourage to talk about this because I think people will defend who they are support for. FYI, my school never taught me anything about violance or how to make a bomb. I am not a terrorist and so do my friends.
I am studying at boarding school so.................... it makes me seperated so far away from my parents. It has been 2 weeks since I left my home after ramadhan and eid. I don't know why but this time feel so different. I'm in senior year now and it lasts for 10 months, can't wait to see my parents and siblings on my graduation day. buttt it still sooooooo longgg. I MISS MY MOM. DAD. SISTER.BROTHER.
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I am not myself without them. I am fractious girl that exist in this world. Even myself hate it. hehehehhe. Homesick feels so not good. You feel so hopeless, nothing you can do when you get this feeling. You won't concentrate studying, badmood mode on, so sensitive, emosional, all you wanna do just call your parents and crying cause hear their voice. Because I'm so closed with my parents so when they don't call me or give attention to me, it makes me so saaaaadddddddddd!!! My mom totally understand when I started crying because I asked her when she would visit me. But my dad, huft, so different, he doesn't like when I started crying. IF I DID, HE WOULD SAY THAT I CHOSE TO STUDY AT BOARDING SCHOOL BY MYSELF, so annoying right? I know😒 . I'm not the only one who get homesickness, my friends also, but not all. But if you asked them when I will get homesick? Maybe they will answer everytime I have called with my parents especially my mom. #lol Maybe you guys think I'm so spoiled but I don't think so. I did this because I'm seperated miles away from my parents, my home, my hometown, my everything. You will know this feel when you have to go to university (in case you leave your hometown, ok?) .
Dorm life is not as good as you think, well I know most people think it so BIG NO when they had boarding school on their head, but not me. At first, I thought it was so awesome because you can meet you friends 24/7. All I was thinking about playing, hanging out, chatting, all about having fun. I wasn't thinking about how the activity after school or how if I got sick or you don't like food in the kitchen or when you get problem with your roommates. I didn't think about that at all that time. On the other hand, it was totally different from my expectation 😔. Well don't blame on me. I thought like that because based on novel I have read. #stupidgirl hehehe so not smart I know. But I don't mind with that now, all the matter is I WANNA GO HOME, meet my umi and abi, eat my umi's foods, play with my siblings, and hug them all. I call my parents, Umi and Abi, it is arabic #fyi #justincaseyoudunno. Please keep your pray on me guys😇. Please pray on me so I can pass my UAN with good score, accepted in university that I dream about and always keep healthy. Thankyou so much guys.
You know guys? Today I have math, physics, chemistry and biology subjects.
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Aren't they so wonderful? #nowonderwhypeoplekilledthemshelves #noimkidding hehehhehhehhe
WHO'S PSYCHO MAKE MY CLASS' SCHEDULE?!
Actually it isn't so bad, I can survive, tho. I am neither type of teeneger who dislike study very much nor like it very much. okay?? I'm in the middle, average people lah. Well, I'm in senior high school now and will graduate soon, InsyaAllah. This year will be more frustating I think, because this-last-two-semesters I will find university on my own and practice test and National Examination (UAN). I even can't imagine what will happen to me soon. 😫 😱
Well back to the topic hehe. actually guys, I really love calculation than theory ugghh... Like seriously guys, Who wants to spend their time remind all-of-those-things? Me? Thanks, I'd better work out with all those numbers than remind all of those words. So if you guess I like Math and Physics you are right, totally right AND I DO HATE BIOLOGY because there aren't any numbers there😭 😭 😭 . Chemistry? I like it when there is calculation on its chapter hehehe so fifty:fifty then So lucky you are if you can memorize all of those words in your mind. I wish I could do that so I don't need to stay awake for night to remind all-of-those-words and maybe forget about them in the morning and get panic when teacher give out the paper ........ It happens all the time to me #poorme #luckyyou
But you won't have long-tired-day if you have bestfriends who always support you and made your terrible day become soooooooooooooo hilarious like my girls have done everyday #itisnthilariousactually #allofusaresocrispy
Soooo....... where I have to start it... . . . . . . . . well guys, I am new here and don't know where to start it. Now I'm trying to be blogger, anonymous actually hehe and I know my blogger's name sounds so cheesy, but I dont know what to name it. Any suggested? 😏 So because I am new here, I need so much advice from all of you guys! Thankyou. 😅 😆